I haven’t talked to my friend for a few months and I once again feel like she hates me. I feel like all I do is let everyone down right now. I’m not sleeping well, I’m not eating well, I feel like I just need to hide away and not be around anyone ever, but I know that if I hide away my moms going to get pissed because I’m “doing nothing” and she’s going to basically call me the bad kid all over again and my brother the amazing one. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t here. All I do is mess things up and I get yelled at for shit that I do or that I don’t do. I know I’m older now and I should have my life together but it’s not as easy as my mom makes it look and all my friends make it out to be, I just want to stay in my room and never come out sometimes. I feel like I don’t have anyone in my life that I can count on anymore.